Hello again Lisa,
This is really great news, I'm so relieved he is acting quickly for
him.
I did not want to worry you unduly but your original post sent
shivers down my spine when I read it. I don't know for sure if your
experience with the doctor that wanted to leave it for now is typical
of doctor/patient visits in your Country, but from my exposure on
this site and reading some posts elswhere too, it seems to be at
least pretty regular behaviour if not the norm.
You know I'm critical of our medical system when it's needed but it
is important to be as even handed as possible in these matters so for
the record, I cannot imagine that occuring here with a child as a
patient. Children's illness ALWAYS gets a priority lable and there
are no circumstances where a child would be left for 6 months without
a check on such a potentially serious condition. Even more so where
the danger or a high likelyhood of diabetes. there is simply no
chances taken, Evan would have been in hospital within hours of those
blood work-ups coming back. Kiddies get priority, no exceptions.
We all know that ER staff are under constant pressure and they don't
like it when people come in with minor problems that should be dealt
with by a PCP, but here, the ER staff would give you a telling off if
you did that and you would be left to sit to hammer home the message
to you as well!!
But they would NEVER say a word to any worried parent that arrives
with a child that they believe is ill or is not improving on, say, an
antibiotic or something. They treat kiddies as Royalty here and
that's exactly how it should be too.
Lovely Lisa, there is absolutely no reason for you too feel guilty
about your sons potential illness, not a reason in the world, please,
please belive this and put it right out of your mind.
Let me put it this way, you are not responsible or at fault somehow
if Devan did develop say Pancreatitis, of whatever type.
However, if you do not take control of your own emotions and
behaviour now, and you become depressed and withdrawn from your
family, then there is a very strong case to be made against you for
not taking proper care of yourself and your surrounding problems and
as a result, becoming depressed and of little use to your family
generally, and to Devan in particular.
I'm not being deliberately cruel, you know I'm incapable of that, but
I am being brutally honest with you. You are blessed with a very
supportive husband, forget about his attitudes in the past, he is
there for you and with you every inch of the way now. You have loving
and supportive parents and that's a great bonus, and they are near
you too, unlike so many others.
In your own words, you are blessed to have the internist you have, he
attends Devans birthdays for goodness sake, can you imagine what he
would do should there be any emergency, you are indeed truly blessed
over and ocer with him. Then you say you are blessed with having Dr
Lo, and indeed you are, think back to last weekend and the state Chey
was in with doctors, or go back a little further to when Shawna was
in trouble with doctors and hospitals.
Compared to so many others, even among the TPP Family, you are
Blessed beyond all the treasures in the world. You have to focus on
these blessings, focus on these great strengths you have behind and
beside you. There is no place or space in your soul or your heart for
negativity anymore, your situation has been ratcheted up quite a few
notches all at once, your on a level of responsibility so high you
cannnot afford to fall of so to speak. And the beauty of this is that
you have already proven that you can deal with a child that is very
ill, you have risen to the challenge when your beautiful little
neighbour became so seriouisly ill. Don't let yourself forget about
that,
You were pretty unwell yourself at that time and no one, absolutely
no one, would have critised you had you turned your back on her or
went into a deep depression rather than deal with the situation of
her ilness. At a time when so many members, including you I recall
were speaking of great hair loss, you went against the odds and began
to grow yours as a gift for your little neighbour, (Kerry?)
You have to have a tleas the same level of strenght for Bevan, even
greater because he is, after all, your baby!!
I will not go on about this with you, especially now Lisa, but I have
every confidence in you, but that's no use to Bevan, what Bevan needs
from you right now, and maybe even more in the future, is that YOU
HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF!
Depression is not an inevetability, you do have a choice, but you
have to make that choice, you have to tell yourself that you can deal
with whatever has to be dealt with for yourself, and for Bevan if he
becomes ill from his present conditions. It now looks lke a
monumental task, not just yourself, but now there will be someone
else to take care of as well. Stop and think, your already dealing
with your own health issues, and better than you think too, so all
you have to find is the extra bit of effort and energy needed to help
Evan and to be there for him if he needs you, which, of course, he
will do, that's what Moms are for .
Bye again
Pat